Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Don't Get Me Started.

Unpublished Works, © 1997, BillyPauleyJr.*

Don’t Get Me Started.

Girl, you are lonely,
And I feel the same,
We’ve both been losers,
Losing in somebody’s game,
I see the compassion,
In your teary eyes,
A mutual attraction,
To no surprise,

But don’t get me started,
No, don’t get me started,

Girl, we only met,
A short time ago,
But there’s so much,
So much I seem to know,
I’ve lived your life,
And I’ve held your pain,
I’ve been thru’ it all,
Again and again,

But don’t get me started,
No, don’t get me started,

Don’t get me started,
I don’t want to love again,
Don’t get me started,
I don’t want to lose a friend,
O’, girl, I beg you,
Don’t get me started,

Girl, I want you,
Like nobody else,
But still I feel,
The fear inside myself,
I see the passion,
In your hungry eyes,
I want you so bad,
I cannot disguise,

But don’t get me started,
No, don’t get me started,

Don’t get me started,
I don’t want to love again,
Don’t get me started,
I don’t want to lose a friend,
O’, girl, I beg you,
Don’t get me started,
No, girl, o’, girl,
Don’t get me started,
No, girl, o’, girl,
Don’t get me started.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

The Lament Of Every Housewife Reprise (Fulfillment).

Unpublished Works, © 1991, BillyPauleyJr.*

The Lament Of Every Housewife Reprise (Fulfillment).

As I look in the mirror I realize,
My reflection answers only to me,
It laughs when I laugh,
And it cries when I cry,
And it’s worth as much as I wanna be,

Now I live for the laundry piling up in the hall,
And I pinch pennies every chance that I get,
I’m the life of the party… I’m never alone,
And my lamenting is my only regret,

So get the kiddies now and turn on the t.v.,
There’s my favorite… Sesame Street,
Mr. Rogers, welcome back to the neighborhood,
I’m so happy I have all this for me,

And now it’s time for me and the ones that I love,
For they are the ones I know that I want,
There’s no hunger… in my life,
That’s the fulfillment of every housewife,

There’s no hunger… in my life,
That’s the fulfillment of every housewife.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Lament Of Every Housewife.

Unpublished Works, © 1991, BillyPauleyJr.*

The Lament Of Every Housewife.

As I look in the mirror I realize,
I’m not looking for the likeness of me,
I’m just looking for spots on the surface,
And I’m trying not to leave any streaks,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,

As I stand in the doorway with tears in my eyes,
From the laundry piling up in the hall,
It’s just one more way to remind me,
The insignificance of it all,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,

And now it’s time for me and nobody else,
For nobody knows the hurt that I’ve held,
And I hunger… for life,
That’s the lament of every housewife,

Shoppin’ and lookin’ for bargains,
Pinchin’ pennies that I wish would be there,
Going to parties and sittin’ alone,
For the lack of something to share,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,

I’m the only one who sees what I’m doin’,
And it makes me wanna sit down and cry,
I don’t mind at all clippin’ coupons,
I just wish I didn’t have the time,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,

And now it’s time for me and nobody else,
For nobody knows the hurt that I’ve held,
And I hunger… for life,

O’, and I don’t wanna watch the t.v.,
Lord, I’ve seen every Sesame Street,
Mr. Rogers, get your butt out o’ my neighborhood,
I want nothing so familiar to me,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,
Oo’, o’-o’… oo’, o’-o’,

And now it’s time for me and nobody else,
For nobody knows the hurt that I’ve held,
And I hunger… for life,
Yeah, I hunger… for my life,
That’s the lament of every housewife.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Do Hearts Feel Like Mine?

Unpublished Works, © 2002, BillyPauleyJr.*

Do Hearts Feel Like Mine?

Do hearts feel like mine?

When the world turns in the sunshine,
When the stars burn in the moonrise,
When everything is all right,
Do hearts feel like mine?

Hearts feel like mine,
When the walls hit the ground,
When the smoke rolls around,
When the flames burn us down,
Hearts feel like mine,
When the terror is so near,
When our hearts fall to fear,
When the hatred is so clear,
Hearts feel like mine,

Do hearts feel like mine?

When flowers blossom wildly,
When the weather greets us mildly,
When Mother Nature’s smiling,
Do hearts feel like mine?

Hearts feel like mine,
When dark clouds start forming,
When skies turn to storming,
When thunder echoes warning,
Hearts feel like mine,
When rain falls like anger,
When lightening poses danger,
When peril is no stranger.
Hearts feel like mine,

Do hearts feel like mine?

When church bells clap out ringing,
When children join in singing,
When innocence is clinging,
Do hearts feel like mine?

Hearts feel like mine,
When desperation enters,
When serenity often splinters,
When summer feels like winter,
Hearts feel like mine,
When tragedy befalls us,
When society is lawless,
When honor loses all trust,
Hearts feel like mine,

Do hearts feel like mine?

When the world turns in the sunshine,
When the stars burn in the moonrise,
When everything is all right,
Do hearts feel like mine?

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Queen Of Bad Days.

Unpublished Works, © 2006, BillyPauleyJr.*

Queen Of Bad Days.

O’, you know what it’s like,
To have a bad day,
You know how it feels,
When things go astray,
O’, you know what it’s like,
To be tired and weak,
But still you don’t know,
What it’s like to be me,

O’, I’m the queen of bad days,
None more worthy than me,
There’s no luck in the dumb,
In what happens to be,
I am happiness cursed,
O’, with poison I reign,
I’m the worst of the worst,
I’m the queen of bad days,

O’, you know what it’s like,
To feel lonely and scared,
You know how it feels,
When you find no one cared,
You know what it’s like,
In the heart of the meek,
But still you don’t know,
What it’s like to be me,

O’, I’m the queen of bad days,
None more worthy than me,
There’s no luck in the dumb,
In what happens to be,
I am happiness cursed,
O’, with poison I reign,
I’m the worst of the worst,
I’m the queen of bad days,

O’, and God Save the Queen,
Is the song my life sings,
To the tragedy I can’t escape,
Nowhere to put down,
This ungracious crown,
I’m the sovereign saint of bad days,

O’, I’m the queen of bad days,
None more worthy than me,
There’s no luck in the dumb,
In what happens to be,
I am happiness cursed,
O’, with poison I reign,
I’m the worst of the worst,
I’m the queen of bad days

O’, I’m the self-appointed,
Duly anointed,
Consecrated queen of bad days.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Intermundium.

Unpublished Works, © 2005, BillyPauleyJr.*

Intermundium.

I have no common place,
No world of my own,
No mundane space,
To call my home,
A perfect freedom,
Looking up from the ground,
Aloof indifference,
Out here, looking down,
In this space between worlds,
O’, I can’t find my place,
No love can fly with me,
No gravity knows my weight,

I’m a star in your dark sky,
O’, but I wanna come down,

You see me shining bright,
O’, but I wanna come down,

I just wanna come down,

I left my teary world,
From a broken dam,
Rushing desperation,
To where I am,
A perfect freedom,
Looking out from the shore,
A castaway devotion,
Out here, wanting more,
In this space between worlds,
O’, I can’t find my gift,
No love can swim with me,
No undercurrent gets my drift,

I’m a ship in your dark sea,
O’, but I wanna come in,

You see me sailing free,
O’, but I wanna come in,

I just wanna come in,

O’, lonely is the place,
Where heartache often goes,
Miles of empty space,
The only place I know,
O’, but I wanna come down,
Yeah, I wanna come in,
Back to the world,
To love and to be loved… again,

I have no common place,
No world of my own,
No mundane space,
To call my home.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

All My Life (Right Or Wrong).

Unpublished Works, © 1987, BillyPauleyJr.*

All My Life (Right Or Wrong).

Mama I know you worry,
‘Bout me and my desires,
I’m growin’ up in a hurry,
I’m burnin’ like a forest fire,
But Mama I’m not yet ready,
To move out of my room,
My life is not quite steady,
Enough to part from you,
And Mama I want you to know,
That even when we part,
No matter where we may go,
You’ll never leave my heart,

O’, Mama can I sing you a love song,
Strange as it may seem,
But all my life, right or wrong,
You were singing your love to me,
And Mama you sure could sing,

Mama my life is a wonder,
For the strength of a woman like you,
Your will is louder than thunder,
Your patience is nothing new,
I know as my world is changing,
I will stand out from the rest,
‘Cos in the midst of my rearranging,
Stands you, my Mama, the best,
And in my days of indecision,
When fear inflicts a cost,
I’ll rest my soul convictions,
In me and you and God,

O’, Mama can I sing you a love song,
Strange as it may seem,
But all my life, right or wrong,
You were singing your love to me,
And Mama you sure could sing,

Mama I know you’ve hidden,
Your tears in my company,
Afraid you’d fail, but you didn’t,
Not by the looks of me,
And Mama I hope you are finding,
A comfort in the truth,
‘Cos it bears a constant reminding,
Of the love I feel for you,
And I am ever so happy,
‘Cos you wouldn’t see me blue,
I only hope God will help me,
To be a someone like you,

O’, Mama can I sing you a love song,
Strange as it may seem,
But all my life, right or wrong,
You were singing your love to me,
And Mama you sure could sing,

Yeah, Mama you sure could sing.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Lately.

Unpublished Works, © 1979, BillyPauleyJr.*

Lately.

You’re gone forever, but it’s only a month and a half,
Your absence lets sadness overcome my laugh,
I sit alone and look at your photograph,
Can’t take it anymore, I know that I’m going to crack,

O', what’s been going on with you, lately,
I’ve been sad and blue, lately,
Maybe I’m wrong, baby, I can’t be strong,
‘Cos you’ve been gone too damn long, yeah, lately,

You finally wrote me a note and you called it a letter,
Words like hello, goodbye, I love ya, don’t make it better,
They just add to the pool of tears that just makes my life wetter,
I’m not getting calmer, I just keep getting upsetter,

O', what’s been going on with you, lately,
I’ve been sad and blue, lately,
Maybe I’m wrong, baby, I can’t be strong,
‘Cos you’ve been gone too damn long, yeah, lately,

Baby, when are you coming home,
I’m sick and tired of living alone,
Even if it’s with a crowd,
You said that you’d be home someday,
I told them at work to look for you today,
Baby, don’t you know I’m proud,
To have you here with me, now, I’d sing it out loud,

And now, you don’t seem to know what it means,
To be shut off and hid away from your dreams,
Your absence breaks my rhythm like a splash in a stream,
It’s tough to hang on, a lot tougher than it seems,

O' yeah, what’s been going on with you, lately,
I’ve been sad and blue, lately,
Maybe I’m wrong, baby, I can’t be strong,
‘Cos you’ve been gone too damn long, yeah,
What’s been going on with you, lately,
I’ve been sad and blue, lately,
Maybe I’m wrong, baby, I can’t be strong,
‘Cos you’ve been gone too damn long, yeah... lately.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Pausal Note #5.

Today, I must pause... Our beautiful, one month old niece, Delilah*, died and the pain is overwhelming. There are no words for me to share today except 'pray'... hope for us to find our way out of this darkness. I will try to be normal, but I am not... or perhaps my normal has forever been changed. May God bless all who read this.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Twenty Years.

Unpublished Works, © 2001, BillyPauleyJr.*

Twenty Years.

Maybe it’s just me,
But you’ve been on my mind,
You’ve been gone for twenty years,
But I still cry,
I don’t know what to do,
I’m lost in all my tears,
You’d be so mad if you could see me,
But you’re not here,

And the circle keeps going round and round,
When the one that I need is the one I’m without,
And the only thing I know for sure is doubt and fear,
It’s been twenty years,

Maybe it’s not fair,
But I’ve been blaming me,
Maybe you would not be gone,
If I could be,
Deep inside my soul,
God knows there’s a prayer,
I’d take your place in heaven, boy,
If He’d have me there,

And the circle keeps going round and round,
When the one that I need is the one I’m without,
And the only thing I know for sure is doubt and fear,
It’s been twenty years,

And I know I was the one who said,
He built his world with so much love,
We can’t be sad he’s no longer here,
Only happy that he ever was,
I give advice, but I cannot live it without you here,
It’s been twenty years,

Maybe it’s just me,
But you’ve been on my mind,
You’ve been gone for twenty years,
But I still cry,
I don’t know what to do,
I’m lost in all my tears,
You’d be so mad… so mad if you could see me,
But you’re not here,

And the circle keeps going round and round,
When the one that I need is the one I’m without,
And the only thing I know for sure is doubt and fear,
It’s been twenty years,

Maybe it’s just me.

- Willy Toad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I Love You Like I Love You.

Unpublished Works, © 2007, BillyPauleyJr.*

I Love You Like I Love You.

I love you like I love you and I don’t wanna lie,
I need you like I need you and I don’t wanna cry,
I wanna give you hugs again, I don’t wanna fight,
I love you like I love you and I don’t wanna lie,

I know I said some awful things that made you so mad,
And I would do most anything to take it all back,
I wanna say the sweetest things that make you so glad,
I love you like I love you and I don’t want you sad,

I wanna be your friend again, I don’t wanna shout,
I wanna say I love you, that’s what it’s all about,
I’m sorry that I ever gave you reason to doubt,
I love you like I love you and there’s no way out,

I love you like I love you and I don’t wanna lie,
I need you like I need you and I don’t wanna cry,
I wanna give you hugs again, I don’t wanna fight,
I love you like I love you and I don’t wanna lie,

I know I did some awful things and I let you down,
And I would do most anything to change it all now,
I wanna do the sweetest things that make you so proud,
I love you like I love you, I don’t want you to frown,

I wanna make the world of us so perfect for you,
Not perfect like I’ll never be, but perfectly true,
I want you to believe in me when I say I do,
I love you like I love you, will you love me too,

One, two… o’, I love you,
Three, four… please open the door,
Five, six… will you forgive,
Seven, eight… before it’s too late,

O’, I love you like I love you and I don’t wanna lie,
I need you like I need you and I don’t wanna cry,
I wanna give you hugs again, I don’t wanna fight,
I love you like I love you and I don’t wanna lie,

Yes, I love you like I love you and I want you to say,
You love me like you love me and you love me today.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Just Monday.

Unpublished Works, © 2001, Bill Pauley Jr.*

Just Monday.

It’s Monday,
Hello, Monday,
Why do I rise,
It’s not sleep,
That I’m rubbing,
From my eyes,
It’s just salt,
From the tears,
That I’ve cried,
From the pain,
That she left,
I can’t hide,

O’, and she’s gone,
So far gone,
I can’t feel,
And her lack,
Of concern,
It won’t heal,
O’, and someday,
I’ll be better,
Wait and see,
But for now,
It’s just Monday,
And just me,

O’, now, Monday,
O’, Monday,
Don’t you know,
That I’ve got,
To get ready,
And go,
And I don’t,
Mind going,
On my own,
It just takes,
My fear and,
Drives it home,

O’, and she’s gone,
So far gone,
I can’t feel,
And her lack,
Of concern,
It won’t heal,
O’, and someday,
I’ll be better,
Wait and see,
But for now,
It’s just Monday,
And just me,

And my friends,
Tell me someday,
I’ll be free,
But for now,
It’s just Monday,
And just me,

O’, for now,
It’s just Monday,
And just me.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Nobody Cares About You.

Unpublished Works, © 2001, BillyPauleyJr.*

Nobody Cares About You.

You keep looking around yourself,
Like there’s someone there, o’, to find,
But don’t you know there is nobody else,
And nobody else seems to mind,
O’, paintings seem to get richer,
And the sky turns more shades of blue,
But the only thing new in the picture,
Is the length of the shadow on you,

O’, and nobody cares if you’re lonely,
Even tho’ you may think that they do,
O’, they care for only them… only,
That’s why nobody wants to be you,

Search in the stars in the heavens,
Wish on the ones that you know,
“Nothing will change” is your lesson,
You were hoping to learn it not so,
O’, and the stars they seem so much brighter,
In constellations you make,
The truth is your eyes have grown wider,
But the darkness has not gone away,

O’, and nobody cares if you’re lonely,
Even tho’ you may think that they do,
O’, they care for only them… only,
That’s why nobody wants to be you,

O’, now, nobody wants to be lonely,
Nobody, not even you do,
O’, you care for only you… only,
That’s why nobody cares to be you,

O’, nobody cares if you’re lonely,
Even tho’ they may say that they do,
O’, they care for only them… only,
That’s why nobody wants to be you,
O’, nobody cares, this is true,
Nobody cares about you.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Hope From Above.

Unpublished Works, © 2007, BillyPauleyJr.*

Hope From Above.

When I was a kid,
I told a lie,
Yes, I did,
I wanted to die,

There I was,
Bleeding from my pain,
Broken trust,
My chosen grave,

But there in my grief,
My Grandma’s love,
Led me to believe,
Hope from above,

She held me close and dried my tears,
She gave these words I’ve held for years,
O’, there’s not a soul in this world without a past,
But with hope from above,
It will not last,
Forgiveness is the path that leads from hell,
With hope from above,
We’ll walk it well,

Fear can bring you down,
I know it will,
I’ve worn its crown,
It haunts me still,

Here I am,
With love so true,
Yet sometimes damned,
By my own rue,

All my hurt,
Left me for dead,
Lost those words,
My Grandma said,

She held me close and dried my tears,
She gave these words lost thru’ the years,
O’, there’s not a soul in this world without a past,
But with hope from above,
It will not last,
Forgiveness is the path that leads from hell,
With hope from above,
We’ll walk it well,

When I worry and let fear take over me,
My Grandma’s love,
Is what I heed,

Hope from above,
Is all I need,

Hope from above,
It’s all we need.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Starry Night (VVG).



Unpublished Works, © 2003, BillyPauleyJr.*

Starry Night (VVG).

It was a starry night,
When I first believed I loved her,
There was a deep blue sky,
In the world surrounding me,
She was a golden moon,
Embracing my emotion,
Making love like a crescendo,
Spilling into my need,

It was a starry night,
It was a true, true light,
Shining over me from her crescent moon,
It was a starry night,
It was a golden sky,
Falling over me like some timeless rune,

O’, it was a starry night,
When I last held her dancing,
There was a deep blue desire,
From the song in my soul,
It sang our truth into time,
Over doubt and its power,
Kept her waxing devotion,
In spite of my waning woe,

It was a starry night,
It was a true, true light,
Shining over me from her crescent moon,
It was a starry night,
It was a golden sky,
Falling over me like some timeless rune,

It was a starry night,
It was a golden light,
Like a flame in my deep blue emotion,
It was a passionate voice,
It was nothing by choice,
It was love in my starry ocean,

It was a starry night,
It was a true, true light,
Shining over me from her crescent moon,
It was a starry night,
It was a golden sky,
Falling over me like some timeless rune,
Falling under her magical tune,

Wishing my heart’s desire,
Eleven golden times,
Into my deep blue life,
On a starry night,

It was a starry night,
Like a golden dream,
It was a starry night, VVG.

-WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Cleopatra's Alive.

Unpublished Works, © 2003, BillyPauleyJr.*

Cleopatra’s Alive.

Daylight in Egypt,
I’m so mesmerized,
Everywhere I look I see,
Cleopatra’s alive,
Every where I go,
There to my surprise,
I feel the light, the raging fire,
Burn in her eyes,

O’, she’s an ancient queen,
Living in modern dreams,
She’s found a way to stay here now,
In all her majesty,
O’, me, o’, my,
What a sight to see,
Cleopatra’s alive,
In my Egyptian dreams,

Twilight in Egypt,
Magic in the midst,
The feel of romance building,
Like the pyramids,
Perfect in design,
Making history,
I feel her heart, the bleeding power,
Of her mystery,

O’, she’s an ancient queen,
Living in modern dreams,
She’s found a way to stay here now,
In all her majesty,
O’, me, o’, my,
What a sight to see,
Cleopatra’s alive,
In my Egyptian dreams,

Midnight in Egypt,
In the pale moonlight,
I see her starry image,
In the Egyptian nights,
Dancing on the moon,
Walking in my dreams,
I feel her soul, her awesome tarek,
Shining over me,

O’, she’s an ancient queen,
Living in modern dreams,
She’s found a way to stay here now,
In all her majesty,
O’, me, o’, my,
What a sight to see,
Cleopatra’s alive,
In my Egyptian dreams,

O’, Cleopatra’s alive,
And only mine,
In my Egyptian dreams.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Once Upon A Time In Love.

Unpublished Works, © 1981, BillyPauleyJr.*

Once Upon A Time In Love.

I had a love, a love that could last,
A love that could last forever,
But like paper dolls in the wind it unfolded fast,
When I reached to save it, it tore right in half,
And I realized then that I never had,
A love that could last forever,

Then I felt hurt, o’ man, I felt hurt,
A hurt I’d call brokenhearted,
Then I stood alone on the planet Earth,
And wondered if another soul in the universe,
Had ever felt that same emotional hurt,
A hurt they’d call brokenhearted,

I felt something new, something different and new,
A feeling I couldn’t describe,
I felt like a child with nothing to do,
Like the toys were all broken and my friends had the flu,
An empty and lonely and a lost feeling too,
A feeling I still can’t describe,

Then I was fine, I was totally fine,
The guilt and the hurt was gone,
And like the dog that conquered the flea,
I’m much happier now than I used to be,
I can live now without that bug biting me,
Yeah, the guilt and the hurt was gone,

Now I need a love, a love that can last,
A love that can last forever,
Not something in the future that’s just part of my past,
Not a kamikaze love destined to crash,
But an ultimate fantasy love that will last,
A love that will last forever.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Monday, September 14, 2009

If It Weren't For You.

Unpublished Works, © 1980, BillyPauleyJr.*

If It Weren’t For You.

If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t be writing,
If it weren’t for you I’d still be crying,
If it weren’t for you I’d feel like dying,
If it weren’t for you,

If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t be happy,
If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t be laughing,
If it weren’t for you no one would have me,
If it weren’t for you,

You see, you were the one,
That stopped me on the run,
And told me I wasn’t done,
And you were right,
Yeah, you were the one,
That seemed to care enough,
To stop me on the run,
And save my life, yeah,

If it weren’t for you I’d still be losing,
If it weren’t for you it’d be so confusing,
If it weren’t for you this couldn’t be music,
If it weren’t for you,

If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t be friendly,
If it weren’t for you I’d just be pretending,
If it weren’t for you it wouldn’t be in me,
If it weren’t for you,

You see, you were the one,
That stopped me on the run,
And told me I wasn’t done,
And you were right,
Yeah, you were the one,
That seemed to care enough,
To stop me on the run,
And save my life,

And now I owe you, Baby,
But I could never pay enough,
And that’s not saying maybe,
That’s just saying I’m in love,
And I hope you can see,
All the things that you do,
‘Cos I wouldn’t be me,
If our love wasn’t true,

No, I just couldn’t be me,
If it weren’t for you.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

The End Of Time.

Unpublished Works, © 2003, BillyPauleyJr.*

The End Of Time.

After work one busy day,
You rubbed my shoulders and kissed my face,
Nothing different, nothing new,
Just the sweet, ordinary you,
Then over dinner and a drink of wine,
You swore you’d love me ‘til the end of time,

O’, the end of time it came today,
And right on cue you went away,
Never wanted to be here,
Never tho’t love would die,
Never dreamt I’d live beyond,
The end of time,

In a place so far from now,
You took my hand and made a vow,
Something ancient, something new,
Something borrowed from the blue,
And in that moment, your heart to mine,
You swore you’d love me ‘til the end of time,

O’, the end of time it came today,
And right on cue you went away,
Never wanted to be here,
Never tho’t love would die,
Never dreamt I’d live beyond,
The end of time,

O’, love is a place for time and devotion,
A treasured confluence of life and emotion,
Never wanted to be here,
Never dreamt love would die,
No, I tho’t you could love me ‘til,
The end of time,

O’, the end of time it came today,
And right on cue you went away,
Never wanted to be here,
Never tho’t love would die,
Never dreamt I’d live beyond,
The end of time,

Never wanted to be here,
Never dreamt love would lie,
No, I tho’t you could love me,
O’, why couldn’t you love me,
Never dreamt I’d live beyond,
The end of time,

Never dreamt I’d be here,
The end of time.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

NineOneOne (Never Again).

Unpublished Works, © 2002, BillyPauleyJr.*

NineOneOne (Never Again).

We never saw it coming,
We never tho’t it could be,
Then suddenly on NineOneOne,
It was crumbling at our feet,
The police and fire departments,
Did everything they know,
Like a hero in our darkness,
They were bravely the first to go,

O’, NineOneOne,
It was to me,
A beginning as much as an end,
Beginning to see on NineOneOne,
We can never let it happen again,

The mayor of New York City,
Congress and the President,
The governor of Pennsylvania,
Cried thru’ the whole event,
O’, the terror in their faces,
The freedom that came undone,
What we didn’t learn from Oklahoma,
We must learn from NineOneOne,

O’, NineOneOne,
It was to me,
A beginning as much as an end,
Beginning to see on NineOneOne,
We can never let it happen again,

It was a day like any other,
Or so it seemed to be,
But when time struck NineOneOne,
NineOneOne struck me,

O’, NineOneOne,
It was to me,
A beginning as much as an end,
Beginning to see on NineOneOne,
We can never let it happen again,

O’, what we didn’t learn from Oklahoma,
We must learn from NineOneOne,

What we didn’t learn from Dhahran,
We must learn from NineOneOne,

O’, what we didn’t learn from our embassies,
We must learn from NineOneOne,

What we didn’t learn from the U.S.S. Cole,
We must learn from NineOneOne,

O’, NineOneOne,
It was to me,
A beginning as much as an end,
Beginning to see on NineOneOne,
We can never let it happen again,
We can never let it happen again,

O’, never,
O’, NineOneOne,
Never, o’, never again.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Especially For You.

Unpublished Works, © 1981, BillyPauleyJr.*

Especially For You.

Some people meet and they know right away,
That love was meant to be,
Some people struggle from day to day,
Without ever finding the love they need,
And still there are others, so they say,
Who are caught up somewhere in between,

So I was only wondering to myself,
What kind of love is in store for you and me,

And I wonder, will you think I am sweet,
And I wonder, will you fulfill my needs,
And I wonder, will you ever fall in love with me,

Sometimes a love can fill your heart,
And keep you from being blue,
Sometimes a love will fall apart,
And still you want to believe it’s true,
Then many others won’t take you that far,
You feel like you have been used,

So I was only wondering to myself,
What kind of love is in store for me and you,

And I wonder, will you think I am sweet,
And I wonder, will you fulfill my needs,
And I wonder, will you ever fall in love with me,

Someday we’ll meet and we’ll know right away,
Our love is meant to be,
‘Cos I just can’t struggle from day to day,
Without ever finding the love I need,
And I cannot live any other way,
Being caught up somewhere in between,

So I was only wondering to myself,
What kind of life is in store for you and me,

And I wonder, will you think I am sweet,
And I wonder, will you fulfill my needs,
And I wonder, will you ever fall in love with me.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Patriot Day.

Unpublished Works, © 2002, BillyPauleyJr.*

Patriot Day.

One year gone,
Freedom lives on,
And it will live forever,
For the things you have done,
So count your blessings,
Seize your day,
Watch the flags,
And children wave,
Tomorrow’s freedom,
Lives here today,
You are the hope,
For which we pray,
You are the difference,
Which must be made,
You are the will,
You are the way,
You are America,
The U.S.A.
God bless you,
And your life today,
God bless America,
It’s Patriot Day!

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Talk About Me (Let's Not).

Unpublished Works, © 2001, BillyPauleyJr.*

Talk About Me (Let’s Not).

Well, you want me to tell you all about me,
But I’m telling you already know everything,
I’m the man who stole right out of your dreams,
I’m the very man you want me to be,
I won’t lie to you, I won’t hurt you so,
I won’t let you down, I won’t ever go,

But let’s not talk about me,
There’s nothing more to know,
I came right out of your dream,
And right into your soul,
I’m the man that you’re sure,
Is impossibly so,
Let’s not talk about me,
There’s nothing more to know,

Well, I know it might be hard to believe,
But you’ve never met a man like me,
I’m a toad to everyone passing thru’,
But kiss me and I’ll be a prince for you,
I won’t make you worry, won’t cause you to cry,
I won’t ever, ever tell you goodbye,

But let’s not talk about me,
There’s nothing more to know,
I came right out of your dream,
And right into your soul,
I’m the man that you’re sure,
Is impossibly so,
Let’s not talk about me,
There’s nothing more to know,

Well, you want me to tell you all about me,
When really you already know everything,
But you’ve gotta hold on, you’ve gotta believe,
And I’ll be the very man you want me to be,
I won’t let you down, I won’t let you cry,
I won’t let you ever wonder why,

But let’s not talk about me,
There’s nothing more to know,
I came right out of your dream,
And right into your soul,
I’m the man that you’re sure,
Is impossibly so,
Let’s not talk about me,
There’s nothing more to know,

O’, let’s not talk about me,
O’, no more,
There’s nothing more to know,
Nothing more,
I know.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Who Is This Cinderella?

Unpublished Works, © 2009, BillyPauleyJr.*

Who Is This Cinderella?

When I was just a child,
I heard a story told,
Where neglect would always flounder,
And goodness would turn gold,
But in an unforgiving world,
My hope is often pale,
To realize my deliverance,
Is just a fairy-tale,

Who is this Cinderella,
How did she make me believe,
That my heart would be rewarded,
That someone would rescue me ,
My glass slipper is half-broken,
In my unrequited dreams,
Who is this Cinderella,
How did she make me believe,

In my young adulthood,
I waited for the call,
To lift me from my ashes,
And take me to the ball,
But among the rats and pumpkin shells,
When the midnight hour was gone,
There was no fairy godmother,
To wave a magic wand,

Who is this Cinderella,
How did she make me believe,
That my heart would be rewarded,
That someone would rescue me ,
My glass slipper is half-broken,
In my unrequited dreams,
Who is this Cinderella,
How did she make me believe,

Here now in my midlife,
The crisis that unfolds,
Is the flounder from neglect,
The absence of the gold,
Still I often wonder,
Was it life or was it me,
Who failed my happy ending,
And left me only dreams,

Who is this Cinderella,
How did she make me believe,
That my heart would be rewarded,
That someone would rescue me ,
My glass slipper is half-broken,
In my unrequited dreams,
Who is this Cinderella,
How did she make me believe,

O', who is this Cinderella,
Why, o' why, can't it be me?

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Am I Too Selfish.

Unpublished Works, © 2000, BillyPauleyJr.*

Am I Too Selfish.

I am here,
And I miss you so much,
Sometimes I am scared,
When I’m waking up,
And I feel,
I should be there for you,
It is my place in life,
And I know it is true,

Am I too selfish,
To be me,
Am I worthy,
Am I just in a dream,
Am I right to want to hold you forever,
Am I wrong for loving you holding me,
Am I too selfish,
Am I too selfish,
O’, I’m just me,

You are there,
And I know you’re asleep,
But sometimes I call you,
Just to hear you speak,
And I feel,
If you had your choice,
You would go back to sleep,
But I love your voice,

Am I too selfish,
To be me,
Am I worthy,
Am I just in a dream,
Am I right to want to hold you forever,
Am I wrong for loving you holding me,
Am I too selfish,
Am I too selfish,
O’, I’m just me,

I am here,
And I miss you so much,
And I want you to know,
There is no other love,
And I feel,
Like a tiger inside,
But only when you,
Are here by my side,

Am I too selfish,
To be me,
Am I worthy,
Am I just in a dream,
Am I right to want to hold you forever,
Am I wrong for loving you holding me,
Am I too selfish,
Am I too selfish,
O’, I’m just me,

Am I too selfish,
Am I too selfish,
O’, I’m just me.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Last Day On Earth.

Unpublished Works, © 2007, BillyPauleyJr.*

Last Day On Earth.

Did you talk to your mother,
Did you pray with your Father,
Did you shower your lover,
With the love they deserve,
Did you see your children,
Did you hug them and kiss them,
O’, ‘cos this could be your,
Last day on Earth,

You don’t see your end coming,
Ah, but who ever does,
Will you leave love regretting,
How you wish that it was,
Don’t wait for tomorrow,
For the things you’d do first,
If you knew this would be your,
Last day on Earth,

Did you play with your puppy,
Did you speak from your heart,
For your brothers and sisters,
Did you stand up and serve,
Did you take any vows,
Did you make them all true,
O’, ‘cos this could be your,
Last day on Earth,

You don’t see your end coming,
Ah, but who ever does,
Will you leave love regretting,
How you wish that it was,
Don’t wait for tomorrow,
For the things you’d do first,
If you knew this would be your,
Last day on Earth,

And you may live forever,
But you can never be sure,
O’, ‘cos today could be your,
Last day on Earth

And for the ones in your heart,
Let your true love unfurl,
O’, ‘cos today could be your,
Last day on Earth

And even if it is not,
Don’t you know it could be their,
Last day on Earth.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

You To Me And Me To You.

Unpublished Works, © 1980, BillyPauleyJr.*

You To Me And Me To You.

No one I know of could take your place,
You’re everything I could have,
Me, I’m just another face,
And not a very pretty one at that,
I would change my hair, change my clothes,
I would change my personality,
And I could do more things like those,
If you would just consider me,
And sometimes I wonder,
Why you stay with me,
When I don’t even like myself,
Rainbows would turn to thunder,
If you didn’t want me,
For me there’s no one else,
And I tell myself to get out of your way,
I know I’m just holding you down,
You don’t deserve to be bro’t to disgrace,
I’m a loser all around,
‘Cos I think you’re great,
And I’m out of place,
If I beg you not to leave,
And the ironical thing,
That all of this brings,
Is that you say the same thing to me.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

A Flower For You.

Unpublished Works, © 2004, BillyPauleyJr.*

A Flower For You.

When you need,
I will be there for you,
With a flower,
And a heart that is true,

I will wait,
I will walk in your land,
I’ll save you,
With a touch of my hand,
O’, I can take all your sadness,
It’s true,
With a flower,
And a smile for you,

When you fear,
I will not let you down,
I will smile,
And bring you around,
I will laugh,
I will make you forget,
You’ll wonder why,
You haven’t kissed me yet,
O’, I can take all your sadness,
It’s true,
With a flower,
And a smile for you,

Yes, I can stop all your sadness too,
With a smile,
And a flower for you.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Carousel View.

Unpublished Works, © 2006, BillyPauleyJr.*

Carousel View.

Sometimes my life,
Without changing a thing,
Can overwhelm my soul,
With the trouble it brings,
It’s unpredictable,
I feel out of touch,
This spinning world,
Is often too much,

It’s like a carousel view,
On a lonely day,
All the world moves,
But I’m still the same,
Nothing stops for me,
Even tho’ I pray,
O’, it’s like a carousel view… I see,
On a lonely day,

I hear the music play,
And the children sing,
I close my eyes,
To see beautiful things,
Never knowing where,
My emotions will fall,
I’m ready with a smile,
And tears for all,

It’s like a carousel view,
On a lonely day,
All the world moves,
But I’m still the same,
Nothing stops for me,
Even tho’ I pray,
O’, it’s like a carousel view… I see,
On a lonely day,

Sometimes I smile,
Sometimes I frown,
Always, I pray,
I’ll come around,
To a better view,
Inside myself,
O’, its’ a lonely world,
My carousel,

It’s like a carousel view,
On a lonely day,
All the world moves,
But I’m still the same,
Nothing stops for me,
Even tho’ I pray,
O’, it’s like a carousel view… I see,
On a lonely day,
So like a carousel view… I see,
On a lonely day.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad production.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

For Me.

Unpublished Works, © 1981, BillyPauleyJr.*

For Me.

Tell me all about yourself,
Pull your secrets from your shelves,
Dust ‘em off and shake ‘em well,
For me,

Tell me what you like to do,
Brag a little while on you,
Turn it on and turn it loose,
For me, for me, for me,

Let me see into your eyes,
Everything you keep inside,
Share with me your whole life thru’,
And I will share my life with you,

Tell me how you wanna be,
Let your feelings and tho’ts roll free,
Let me hear them truthfully,
For me,

Tell me who you really are,
How your life has been so far,
What kind of wishes you make on stars,
For me, for me, for me,

Let me see into your eyes,
Everything you keep inside,
Share with me your whole life thru’,
And I will share my life with you,

Tell me what I wanna hear,
The sentiments you hold for me are dear,
Tell me you always want me near,
‘Cos when I am there is no fear,
My love is always crystal clear,
And you won’t ever cry a tear,
For me,

Let me see into your eyes,
Everything you keep inside,
Share with me your whole life thru’,
And I will share my life with you,

O’, o’, let me see (into your eyes),
Everything (you keep inside),
Share with me (your whole life thru’),
And stay with me (my whole life thru’),
O’, o’-o’, o’, o’, for me.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.

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101 of the Best Signatures of WillyToad*

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(And Other Wild Life). by DonnaDrake*

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The Houston Years of WillyToad*

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Release date: 06-01-10; delayed: 06-01-11.



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