Fading Friends.

Unpublished Works, © 2005, BillyPauleyJr.*

Fading Friends.

I love the best way I know how,
Yet I stumble again and again,
Is it me, is it who I can’t be,
In the heartbeat of my fading friends,
I open my arms to icy rejection,
I blow a kiss into empty air,
It kills me, how my heart doth bleed,
What’s the purpose of love unaware,

O’ the depth of my darkness is my fading friends,
It’s the strength of my weakness within,
I’m blind in the light of my love growing dim,
In the heartbeat of my fading friends,

I worry as much as I wonder,
Only wanting the best for my friends,
I wish and I hope, I pray and I dream,
But I don’t know where to begin,
Is it a product of my intention,
Without knowing how to provide,
That spoils the riches of my true heart,
And dampens the meaning inside,

O’ the depth of my darkness is my fading friends,
It’s the strength of my weakness within,
I’m blind in the light of my love growing dim,
In the heartbeat of my fading friends,

I believe if my friends often knew me,
They could harvest the love I possess,
Yet over and over and over I see,
The surface of my distress,
O’, I love the best way I know how,
Yet I stumble again and again,
Is it me, is it who I can’t be,
In the heartbeat of my fading friends,

O’ the depth of my darkness is my fading friends,
It’s the strength of my weakness within,
I’m blind in the light of my love growing dim,
In the heartbeat of my fading friends,

Is my love swimming in ignorance,
Is my soul drowning in arrogance,
Is my heart dying in negligence,
In the heartbeat of my fading friends.

- WillyToad*

… this is a Smokey the Toad™ production.